The end so close

As the song finishes this time

The brain registers I've shifted a little more to the right
And then I replay the song yet again pulling myself from the floor to the wall
Im sitting most comfortably, supporting me is this tree standing tall
The lights are off and its dark, no sounds to distract me
the fifth floor height is another reality
Yes. there's work left to do
but I will waste time today
Ditch the whole world. Bitch
I was awakened by thundering in the morning
rain afterwards, whole day mourning
And now i'm tired, thoughtful ..its cool and breezy
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Im an inch far from a great fall
the world will call it suicide
some people will cry and recall
and yet it seems so easy, a task to do
a goal to finish. ask no questions
Do I have nothing to lose?
looking back my memories are all pleasant to choose
then why did i not wait for the song to end
and moved a bit more to the right ..towards the end